How did we get this far apart?

That's the question I asked myself yesterday, while I was listening to the song and reading some old conversations.
How did we get so close in the first place and so far apart then? It seems to me nothing never happened. That's a weird feeling. You didn't do what you should have done, I stopped understanding. You put so much energy trying to make me hate you that in a way you succeeded. I don't really hate you but I don't feel like I used to.
That's what you wanted right?
Today, I am not pissed off, I am not mad, I am not sad. I just don't understand sometimes feelings. I didn't think I could build such a wall. In all your doubts, you lost me. The wall is huge, and nothing can go through it. No tears, no joy, nothing. Is it what we call indifference? Am I really indifferent?
Good memories seem to be burried. In the first place, it was to avoid the pain, now it is just like that.
Whose fault is it? Not all yours. I am also responsible for what is happening. But maybe if you had called when i needed you to, if you had been there for me when i needed you, then maybe i wouldn't have needed to build this wall.
You wanted me to go on with my life, to forget you, I did. Distance helps. I don't see where we are going anyway. Because all the things you said are just too far away and you are acting the opposite way. Because I do not want to fight anymore, because I do not hope anymore, because that is life, because this is how it works, or maybe how i work.
Because i was hurt too much, i am going away.