Dark clouds in a bright sky

Because nothing can be perfect. Even when you are having the best time in your life, living the most extraordinary experience, there's always a little thing that makes you wanna cry. But tears are blocked somewhere in my body, and I am just feeling angry and desperate to understand.
My life is never gonna be happy, because a dark cloud is bringing more with him, deepest scars wake up, and the unanswered questions come back. The what if are never gonna stop.
What did I do wrong? Why is everything changing so quickly?
Ignorance... sometimes I would just like to go back to that stage, that nothing began again.
Do certain people really think I can cope with everything. That my heart can be taken, folded and sent to the trashcan? Why do I seem so strong whereas I am so fragile and praying for someone to take care of me?
Why did I fall for the wrong person and go on torturing myself? Why do I keep believing when everything seems to be lost?
I don't wanna cry here, I want to enjoy this new life.
I want a year, even just 6months with no big dark clouds. Is it ever gonna be possible in my life? Am I asking too much? Am I complaining too much?
I think I need your help my little guardian angel. Come back for me please. Come what may...You know the rest of it...