Stuck in the past, enjoying the present moment but not really knowing where im going to. So scared of this fucking future, so scared. Not able to plan anymore, to decide where i want to live, what i want to do. So lost, so fucking lost. What is gonna happen at the end of this year??
The past took me my future, i can only live in the present. Too many uncertain things when I try to look in the future.
I tried to start planning again, but it didn't last. I'm all by myself to do that, and I have no idea where I'm heading to.
We're all by ourselves, I'm by myself. I feel like I'm fighting against a windmill. Someone is gonna have to decide soon, I don't want to do that, Im not strong enough to do that, and I'm fed up.
I'm fed up of everything, except of my friends. I'm fed up to wake up early, work all day long, then late in the night and sleep just a little bit to start it all over again.
Im fed up fed up, you know why, but I can't tell and it's killing me inside, but im shutting up because im too scared and not strong enough.
I my world it's a hell of a mess right now
Saturday, October 06, 2007
In my world
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Don't have much to say about that, just one stupid advice, one of those which are so easy to say and so hard to follow, anyway : try not to put more pressure on yourself than what you are already feeling.
There's no better time to choose something than the time you feel you're ready for it. No age, no period, nothing, nobody, but you can know when it's the right time.
Somehow, something will pop out of what you call your messy life.
Lov
xx
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